When God confronts you.

As the year comes to a near end once again, God has been stirring me to reflect upon the past year a whole lot harder. In fact, He's been bringing me all the way back to the past four years. As always, when our lives are being reflected in the light of His glory, all the nasty and ugly things are put on display for us to see. Time and time again, I ask the Lord, "How and where can I go from here? I'm broken and have fallen short every single time". And that gentle answer remains the same as always, "Come to me, child. Come find rest in me". 

The past 4 years have been quite a journey. Yet it's one that's also filled with many hard turns and bumps. So far, this year has been rather significant (in more ways than one and in more ways than the physical and natural form) as God began to slowly put into light some of the many things that I've been wrestling with and yet refused to deal with. If there's one thing about God, is this - He is a persistent God! He kept persisting me to face my many unresolved issues - emotional, character, relational, etc - He persisted me to face them along WITH Him. But so often, it's a lot easier to push aside the many hurts, disappointments, heartbreaks, pains, failures, fears aside and just keep walking and pretending that nothing is wrong rather than just confronting it. And before you know it, the journey soon becomes a long and lonely walk because in the midst of pushing aside all the unresolved issues, we unknowingly (or perhaps knowingly) push aside God as well. 

As I begin to search a little deeper what God is wanting me to do next, He prompted me: 

"You can choose to either CONFRONT your unresolved issues or to CONFORM to what already is". 

Obviously, God is asking a rhetorical question. When God confronts you, he comes in love along with a life-challenge. In the recent weeks, I know I've not been at peace with many things and I've been going through day after day with this unsettling feeling weighing on my shoulders. It's as if God is now literally pushing me to confront firstly my very self and secondly, people as well. Lord, please help me. But as God revealed to me the different issues that I've kept in my closet, I'm surprised myself how certain things are still kept in the closet, things I least expected. I know God will not withhold anything good from me and when I confront the different issues, I know He will open doors to greater things, stronger relationships, moulded character and deeper walk with Him. 

Lord, teach me to confront what needs to be confronted no matter how hard it may seem. 

Grant me wisdom in dealing with the different issues.

Grant me strength to persevere through in dealing with them.

Grant me love to be shared and poured out to others. 

Grant me peace as I deal with these issues.

Amen.

"Trust in him at all times, O people; 

Pour out your hearts to him, 

for God is our refuge."

Psalm 62: 8