Servanthood

It's been bugging me for a while now, this whole issue on servanthood.
Call it divine intervention but Sunday morning sermon in church was on servanthood as well.
Just when I thought I could take my time to think through God just had to bring it up.
No running away I guess.

For the past month or so, I've been leading a rather aimless life.
No direction whatsoever.
Looking for a job was one issue but knowing my calling was another.
I've been praying earnestly for direction in life since stepping out of USM.
God has answered me here and there a little.
But until now, I still don't really know for sure what is my calling.

Through events and experience, I guess I can roughly sketch out where my heart lies in terms of my "calling".
I know I have a heart for people.
I know I want to be in a field, be it a job or a ministry, in which I can invest my time in peoples' lives.
I know my passion is in making a difference in peoples' lives.
These are the burden that God has placed in my heart.

FES?
Full-time?
Youth Ministry?
Music and Drama?
Sports?
Social service?

*Shrug*

Servanthood means so much more that just serving others.
There is a cost to pay.
When it comes to servanthood, it means stepping out of our comfort zone and moving into the face of challenges/obstacles.
It means giving up our rights for the sake of others and yes, servanthood also means that we are putting ourselves in the line of criticism.
We will be prone to be taken advantage of.
I was reminded about these crucial points on servanthood in church.
These really are the fundamentals of servanthood.
Evidently, Jesus set an example for us to follow, a standard even.

Jesus washed his disciples' feet (John 13:1-17).

I want to follow His example.
Certain things occurred in the past 2 weeks or so and I believe God has put certain opportunities for me in terms of serving.
However, I want to be sure of myself.
I want to be sure that God has called me into this area of service.
I would rather wait and get His blessing and assurance rather than blindly committing myself into it even though the opportunity seems to be a very good one.

A test? Maybe.
Lack of trust? Maybe.

At the end of the day, He knows where my heart lies.
If it is His will for me to be there or here, where ever He leads...
I will follow.

"I have set you an example that you should do as I have done for you. I tell you the truth, no servant is greater than his master, nor is a messenger greater than the one who sent him. Now that you know these things, you will be blessed if you do them."
John 13: 15-17